
A lot of people will tell you to journal in order to process your feelings. It’s a worthwhile pursuit. I believe in the power of the written word, no matter who is doing the writing. But journaling, for me, was never really the way I wanted to express the things that I was feeling. So I turned instead to writing poems.
Sometimes the poems are exactly what I want to say on the first draft. Sometimes they require revision. Sometimes they are so bland and ordinary that there is nothing worth revising. Sometimes they say nothing of consequence. Sometimes they say everything in just a few words. Sometimes they ramble.
I haven’t written many poems over the past ten years, but occasionally, poetry feels like the best way to process what I’m feeling. I find that when the dark parts of life come to roost, a poem can say what I need to say better than any other media. In a poem, I can be honest and authentic in ways that I can’t in an essay, an open letter, a short story or a journal entry. I can draw the reader (and myself) further into my pain through a poem. I can show my true self. I can use it to heal.
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The Friend Who Lingers
I see you standing outside in the yard Where I sent you after I was tired Of your stories about me. And the people who love me. Sometimes I wonder what you are doing Standing there, waiting for me As if I wanted to sink back into your bleak embrace. No, I say to myself…
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What We Don’t Say
There are things we don’t say as part of our social contract “It hurts me when you don’t return my messages” “I don’t like how that made me feel” “I feel like you don’t respect me very much” Because not saying these things keeps the peace And allows everything to go on without having to…
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Homesick
I am homesick for Grammy’s kitchen And the round table that fit all seven of us With the midtone wooden cabinets and the orange carpet (Yes, orange carpet, an oddity surely) The north facing windows that looked out over the patio Where the green and white rockers waited. I’m homesick for her big yellow bowl…
