
I am homesick for Grammy’s kitchen
And the round table that fit all seven of us
With the midtone wooden cabinets and the orange carpet
(Yes, orange carpet, an oddity surely)
The north facing windows that looked out over the patio
Where the green and white rockers waited.
I’m homesick for her big yellow bowl
(Which now lives in my cabinet)
Filled with strawberries and sugar
Ready to be poured over the biggest biscuit with butter,
A favorite summer supper.
(She always called it supper; dinner was at lunch time).
Homesick for her smile
And the easiness of sitting
Chatting, waiting, doing nothing
As the sun sunk low and the night cooled the farmhouse
(Which turned mysterious in an exciting way when I slept in my uncle’s old room).
The longing for that staircase which seemed infinite as a child
And the dim bathroom at the top of the house
With its warn carpet, wet from my feet
(Yes, carpet in the bathroom; I know)
And the wonder I felt playing with Mom’s Barbies
In a room still cluttered with her old things.
I’m homesick for that house
Where we lined up toys along the sill of the window cut into the staircase wall
And marveled at the green shag carpet of the front room
Because it was so different
(Very exciting for a child)
Spending what felt like the whole summer
Reading and wondering and looking for cats.
What a place of delight, that old house.
I’m homesick to go back.

