The White Stone, a short story I published on The Quick and the Dead in 2022 has been lengthened into a novel, and is now live on Kickstarter. The campaign runs until October 31 at 6 pm EDT. If you enjoyed reading The White Stone and the companion stories published on this blog, I encourage you to check out the full novel. Use the the embedded link below to make a contribution to the campaign and select your reward- either a hardcover or softcover version of the book. Issa Brown has beautifully illustrated 14 characters from the novel which will be included in color in every print copy. My pie-in-sky stretch goal is to narrate an audiobook of this story along with two of my friends.
Thank you for reading my work. I hope you enjoy The White Stone.
Astrid watched from the shadows near the house as her father and Sigmund stacked the wood for the bonfire. Aelric’s chain flashed in the fire light of the torch she held. Ljót was at his side, her arms snaked around his waist. Astrid smiled to herself. It was a good match. He would be happy with her. She watched the dancing and the fiddling from the darkness, just like when her eldest brother was chained, and just like that night, she also watched her cousin Lodvik peel away from the festivities. She moved behind him, quiet as the night, catching him just as he was stepping into the lane at the front of the farmhouse.
“Going back to your woman?” she asked. Eylaug had delivered the twin girls. They were not thriving. Hrist had mixed several medicines for them, but nothing seemed to help. Eylaug did not have enough milk.
Lodvik spun on his heel, his surprise at being addressed evident on his face. But he frowned when he saw it was her. She felt her frown deepening too. “I don’t know. It’s not like I want to be there either,” he said.
“Why has she not chained you?” Astrid asked.
Lodvik looked at her like he couldn’t believe that she didn’t know the answer already. “Don’t you witches know everything?”
She had decided not to correct anyone when they called her witch. They would call her one behind her back anyway. “Because you didn’t give her boys?”
He shrugged. “It is not a happy match, Astrid. I do not care.”
She let her revulsion settle before she spoke again. “You should have come to me first Lodvik.”
“I know,” Lodvik said.
“Remember that, cousin,” she said, “And next time, trust me.”
He looked at his feet, his expression darkening. She nearly choked on the shame he felt. “I will trust you, Astrid,” he managed to say.
In the distance, she could feel Edda, full of power, full of love for Hrothgar. Astrid wondered if the other Bairns could feel her love for her brothers and her cousins through the wild magic. It had never occurred to her to ask until she had felt Edda’s love sliding towards her on the waves of the power.
She turned her attention back to Lodvik. “Ask Helga to help Eylaug,” she said.
He sneered, but at her stern frown, he softened. “Will it help?”
Astrid laughed. “Did you not know that Helga nurses babies for women who have trouble?”
Lodvik’s jaw dropped. “She does?!”
Astrid nodded. “Strip away all the wild magic, Lodvik, and we are just ordinary women,” she said.
“Ordinary women,” he echoed. Then he laughed. “Goodnight, Astrid,” he said.
She watched him walk down the hill, his form melding into the night. But the fear he had felt just a moment before was gone. It had been replaced with hope. It called back to her as he moved away. She smiled to herself and went back to Aelric’s celebration.
She knew it was a dream when she saw the Skuld smile—a pretty smile, not her typical sad, boney smile, stiff and sugared with regret. No, this smile she was given was one of pride, without any accompanying guilt or grief. A warm smile. A smile that illuminated all her dark places.
“You did it, Astrid,” she said, her voice singing like the rain.
Astrid was at complete peace, drifting like a hawk on the breeze. “I did?” she asked.
“Of course you did,” the Skuld said. Now she sounded watery, and the smile wavered before the woods around them went dark.
The voice, the spirit, that had been calling her sounded clear. Protect the boys!
“Protect the boys, Astrid,” the Skuld said, her smile now just a flash in the dark.
Astrid woke in a cold sweat, her heart racing. Spirit dreams did not typically come to her, but how could it have been anything else? She steadied her breathing, pressing her hand to her chest, tuning to the rhythm inside her. Thud-thud. Thud-thud. Thud-thud. It slowed as she exhaled, a long release. She let the tension flow from her body. She opened her eyes, and shivered in the morning air.
Protect the boys. She wondered how.
There was a knock at her door. “Astrid?” Sigmund called from the other side.
“Come,” she said. She had slept in her dress, too tired to remove it. She swung her feet to the floor.
Sigmund opened the door slowly, peering in through the crack before he opened it fully. “We heard you calling,” he said.
“I was asleep,” she explained. She had a habit of talking in her sleep. The whole house was used to it.
Sigmund nodded, though his forehead was creased in worry. “You sounded…” He searched for words. “You sounded afraid, Astrid.”
She wrestled with how much to tell him, but in the end decided she couldn’t tell him any of it. She didn’t understand what was happening herself. She didn’t think she could explain it to anyone else. “I’m fine, Sigmund. Just a bad dream.”
He didn’t move. He didn’t nod. He shut her door, sealing them inside and came to sit on the bed next to her. He offered his hand to her, and she took it, though she frowned in suspicion before she did. They sat together in silence for a moment before he said, “You said you were almost carried off?”
“Oh,” she said, trying to dismiss any of his concern with a slight laugh. “Yes, I…we did a hard task, and it…well, I wasn’t carried off.” She smiled. “Still here for you to worry over,” she said. She squeezed his hand.
But Sigmund was not smiling, nor was he charmed by her dismissal of the situation’s seriousness. “What were you doing?” he asked. “You’ve never come home looking like that.”
She stiffened. “What do you know about Lodvik and Eylaug?” she asked.
Now he stiffened, and pulled his hand away from hers, rubbing his palms down his pantlegs. “Aelric said he put a babe in her belly.” His eyes met hers, looking for confirmation. “It’s true?” he asked.
“You know the house where they say this wild magic lives?” He nodded. “We took Eylaug there yesterday, and we…looked inside her. At the babies.”
“Babies?” Sigmund repeated, his face dropping in surprise.
She nodded. “Girls.” Astrid sighed, and rubbed her forehead, feeling emptied of all her strength. “I almost was carried away looking at girls.” She could not keep the sneer from crawling across her face.
Sigmund seemed to shrink away from her. “I did not know you could do such a thing,” he said, awe and terror mixed up in his words.
“It’s not worth it to try,” Astrid said. “It took all five of us, and what did we gain from it?” She scoffed, then closed her eyes, centering herself so her anger would not catch up to her. “We leveled the house,” she said.
“You what?” Sigmund asked, breathy with disbelief.
“To prevent stories from spreading,” she said. “That place will not help us make more boys, Sigmund. It was a false hope.”
He swallowed down a question that was on his lips, taking a moment to think before he spoke. “Is there any real hope, Astrid?”
The spirits chattered. She closed her eyes, listening to the arguing. One of the voices was chanting softly to her. Edda. It’s Edda.
She smiled to herself before opening her eyes. “There is real hope, Sigmund,” she said, allowing a slight smile to part her lips. The spirits chattered around her. Protect the boys! She listened to the call, thinking of her white stone. She closed her eyes, meditating on the words, drowning in the arguing of the spirits. Someone was screaming, long, devastated, agonized screams of terror. Who are you? She asked into the misty realm where the spirits dwelled. The screaming stopped, then the voice repeated the familiar instructions. Protect the boys! The same voice?
Astrid opened her eyes, and her brother was eyeing her cautiously. “What do you know Astrid?” he asked softly.
The wild magic was not for him, and she was always careful not to reveal what had been revealed to her. Unless he asked for a reading, she would not tell him what she suspected. “I know many things that I would not know without the spirits to tell me,” she said, ignoring his question by giving him an indirect answer.
Sigmund sighed. “Astrid…” he began, but she turned her face away from him, distracted by Sif’s swirling power. She was far away, accompanied by a deep groaning that sounded like the earth swallowing her. Astrid concentrated, pulled towards the power, towards the emotions that were not her own. She stood, hair prickling on the back of her neck.
“What is it?” Sigmund asked, standing as quickly as she had.
She shook her head, then, forgetting Sigmund, allowed herself to be hooked by the call, pulled out of the house and down the street towards whatever trouble had enclosed around Sif.
The streets were empty, which Astrid thought was unusual. She felt an unnatural sensation in the air as she passed the houses, moving towards the center of Soledge. She moved with purpose, slowly, feeling each of Sif’s threads growing taut with tension. Astrid paused momentarily as she passed the apothecary. She could feel the girl, Edda, slippery with love for her man, bouncing from uncertainty to clarity. She lingered too long. Edda reached out, felt her presence. Astrid melted away quickly, not wanting a distraction.
But a distraction found her anyway. At the end of the lane, just as the dirt road disappeared into the grass and old rock that led to the edge of the woods, Aelric was standing with his hands on his hips. He looked stormy, his face overcast with fatigue and fear. Fear. There was always fear.
“What are you doing?” she asked her brother, approaching at a snail’s pace.
Aelric grimaced, rubbing a hand over his mouth to wipe away the expression. “I was…” His eyes shifted away from her. “Astrid, can you…” Whatever it was, he didn’t want to say it. She could feel Sif in the woods, filling with wild magic. The groaning she had heard she now recognized as Aelric’s fears. She stepped nearer to him, closed her palms over his arms. Her touch drew his gaze back to her.
“Aelric,” she said tenderly, soft as air. “What are you doing out here?”
“I couldn’t sleep—listening to Sigmund and Magnhild…” He seemed embarrassed, but she nodded to indicate he didn’t need to explain any further. “I feel sick, Astrid,” he confessed as he brought his face closer to hers. “Like a future is coming for me that I don’t want.”
Lodvik had also expressed this fear—the fear that his life would be chosen for him, without his say. “What do you want, Aelric?” she asked.
“I want to be rid of my fear,” he said. He dropped his eyes, frowning. “I don’t want to be a tool, to used by the spirits and women just to get what they want.”
Astrid remembered the feelings of fear that had taken her when the spirits first began to call her. “I know what you mean,” she said.
Aelric grew angrier, which surprised her. She withdrew her touch, as he spun away, pacing back and forth before her with his hand to his temple. He was thinking furiously, his emotions spinning in a chaotic swirl. She sucked in her breath, resisting the dizziness they brought.
“You don’t know, Astrid!” he yelled, though he didn’t look at her. “You and the other witches think you know, but you don’t know anything!”
For once she didn’t correct him about his choice of descriptor for her and her sisters. “What do you want, Aelric?” she asked again.
He stopped pacing, and looked at her hard, his eyes a sharpened blade of fear. “Sigmund told me to have you read the runes,” he said, deflating as the words left him.
“Is that what you want?” she asked tenderly, reaching for him again.
He pulled his hands away so she couldn’t touch him. “It doesn’t matter what men want, Astrid.”
The words pierced her, brought a flood of tears to her eyes. “There is one who will be called to make it better for you,” she confessed, surprised at the free flowing admission.
He frowned, but his anger cooled. “Who?” She should not have told him anything at all, so she kept her mouth shut. He scoffed, and waved a hand between them, dismissing the conversation. “It doesn’t matter,” he said.
Astrid could feel Sif moving towards them. “Do you want me to the read the runes for you?” she asked.
“And what would you ask?” Aelric said.
She shrugged. “I’ll ask whatever you want to know,” she said.
He considered her for so long that she felt she would grow roots. “Okay,” he finally said, the word a sigh of resignation. “Ask if my sister can find me someone who won’t care so much about what’s between a baby’s legs.”
She swallowed her surprise, blinking back any questions that might have crept into her eyes. She nodded, then retrieved the runes stones from her pouch. She called the wild magic, let it slide through her, twirl around her. She felt warm in its smooth embrace. It filled her, and her she knew the moment that her hair and eyes lost all color, because Aelric took a step back from her. She raised one of the blank white stones to her lips, kissing the smooth surface. She cast the stones to the ground.
The woman. The river. The roots. The grain. She listened to the chatter of the spirits. She knows the land…she farms the lands…she will take him…his chain will be light…She smiled. She did not know the woman well, but a smile crept over her face at the imagined pairing.
“Well?” Aelric asked, his tone a mix of curiosity and suspicion.
“Ljót,” Astrid said, the name sliding easily off her tongue.
Aelric raised an eyebrow. “Why her?”
“Boys and girls both can tend to farms?” she offered.
Her brother nodded, thinking it over. “The runes don’t lie?” he asked, uncertainty creeping into his voice.
Astrid nodded. “If it’s in the runes, it’s true,” she said, repeating the often cited reason for why one should believe the message from a reading.
Aelric was about to ask her another question when Astrid’s attention was drawn to Sif coming out of the woods behind him. Her brother noticed, and sucked in his breath when he saw the other Bairn. “I’ll see you at home,” he said, as he almost ran from the scene. Astrid watched Sif’s approach. She was ecstatic with power—too much, Astrid thought. She looked unearthly, like the Skuld.
“Sif,” Astrid called, reaching out her hands to her sister.
Sif released some of the wild magic. Her eyes were wild with delight. “She’s ready,” she whispered, her face close to Astrid’s.
“Protect the boys,” Astrid whispered compulsively. Sif did not seem to understand what she meant. Astrid didn’t know why she had said it. It had come out of her almost on its own. “I’ll go with you,” she said.
Sif led the way.
The man, Hrothgar, was leaving the house as Sif and Astrid approached. She could feel Freya moving towards them. Hrothgar paused on the doorstep, scowling in their direction. He hadn’t yet shut the door. “Are you here for me?” he called. Fear. Astrid could taste it in the air.
Sif shook her head. “Edda,” she said.
She appeared in the doorway as if summoned. Astrid noticed her unkempt hair, the way her clothes seemed to move on their own. She was holding wild magic, but she likely was not aware that’s what she did. “What do you want?” she asked. She sounded like thorns, like a crashing stone from the cliff, like ice.
“You,” Sif said.
Freya was behind her, and Astrid took a step to the side to let her slide between her sisters. Freya too was delighted. The threads of wild magic linking them passed her emotions to Astrid. Sif ran her tongue over her bottom lip, and Freya pressed a hand to her chest, stilling her heart. Astrid let the heightened emotions of the moment carry her forward. She took one step, but paused as she watched Edda and Hrothgar draw away from her.
“You’ve heard the spirits,” she said.
Hrothgar whirled around, staring at his woman with confusion and panic. Astrid tasted the salt of his dread. “Have you?” he asked.
Edda’s eyes beaded with tears. She nodded. “I don’t want to…” she began.
“You cannot say no,” Freya said. She took a step forward. “It takes more than a man to keep you from the spirits.”
Hrothgar blazed with anger. He shouted at Freya. “Why can’t you just leave us alone? Call someone else!” The echo of his bellows filled the corridor.
“We don’t choose. The spirits choose,” Astrid said calmly. She took another step forward. Hrothgar recoiled further, nearly retreating into the house.
“Choose someone else,” he said.
But from over his shoulder, Edda caught her eye. She was swirling with anticipation, with curiosity, with fear. They were always afraid. “We’ll teach you. You will be safe,” Astrid said.
Edda looked almost willing, but then frowned, and clutched Hrothgar’s arm. “Not if I lose Hrothgar,” she said. “Nothing is worth that.”
“He’s a man, Edda,” Sif said, laughing. “He’s only good for one thing.”
Astrid knew it was the wrong thing to say before Sif even finished. “Go away,” Edda said. “Leave us alone!”
“The spirits will keep calling you,” Freya said. “And we will keep waiting for you.”
Hrothgar pushed Edda back into the house, shutting them inside. The click of the door’s latch seemed eternally final. Astrid did not think it would be easy to convince her. Perhaps her no would be the end of the call, just as Skogul’s had been.
Freya and Sif were smiling though. “She thinks she knows better than us,” Sif said.
Freya’s laugh was sinister. “She will learn,” she said.
Astrid swallowed the fear. There was always fear. Protect the boys, she thought, though she wasn’t sure if it was directed to herself, or to Edda. She thought of Asmund, dipping his finger in the puddle as she had, trying to touch the wild magic, and she had a sudden revelation. It shot through her like lightning. The spirit calling for her to protect the boys had not been calling her. It had been calling Edda.
“Are your sure?” Freya asked, intruding into her thoughts, as if she knew them.
Astrid slowly turned her head to regard her sister. “Whatever needs to happen to restore balance, it will begin with her,” Astrid said, nodding her head towards the house.
The three Bairns all turned their eyes, just in time to see Edda drop the curtain and vanish from the window.
When Astrid woke, she was in the grove. Her body was cool and stiff. She sat up, trailing her hand across the dew gathered on her skirt. Mist rolled over the ground. The Skuld was not with her.
She had come to the grove after Lodvik stormed away from her. It pulled her in, the spirits calling and chattering. She didn’t try to sort out their bickering. She followed the threads of the wild magic. It was a beacon summoning her. She never asked why, she simply obeyed.
In the grove, she and the Skuld had read the bones late into the night. The spirits had argued, screaming about boys and men, screaming about new Bairns, screaming for the sake of screaming. The bones told stories of what might be, stories of what could be, stories of what would be if all the right choices were made. Some of the futures did not please her. Some delighted her. Not a single one did not fill her with dread.
Everything would change. Everything. And soon.
“The woman that Freya has been watching,” the Skuld began.
“Edda,” Astrid said, looking out across the bones that foretold change and upheaval.
“She is ready,” the Skuld said.
“She has a man,” Astrid said. “It’s always harder when they have a man.”
The Skuld smiled. “He will not keep her from us,” she said.
Astrid looked out across the bones. She realized the Skuld was right. She had not seen it before. “Good,” she said. “I think we need her. We need her almost as much as we need boys.”
The Skuld took her hands in her own, staring deep into her eyes. “And those boys will need you, Astrid.”
Astrid nodded, thinking of the name on her white stone. Her true name. “I had thought I knew what my true name was when it was given to me,” she said. “But now I see that it goes deeper than what I thought.”
“What divides our people has never been about whether we are men or women. It has always been about power, and who can wield it.”
“Men like my brother Aelric know that there is too much that is out of balance,” she said. “And women like Freya like it that way.”
“That is why we need women like you. Women like Edda, who want to make this world better for our men,” the Skuld said. Astrid squeezed her hands hard, hoping to keep her in the world longer, coveting her wisdom. She tasted further revelation in the air, but the Skuld was already fading. “I must go,” the Skuld said. “I have work to do.”
Astrid watched her fade from the world, melting into the ground like water. Her anticipation fizzled. She was too tired to return home. She picked a spot under one of the trees and laid her head in a pile of fallen needles strewn with old leaves. She was asleep as soon as her head touched the ground.
Astrid hugged her knees to herself, remembering the previous night, the bones, Lodvik’s anger. She shook her head, still appalled. A girl of fifteen should not be a mother. Neither the Bairns nor the Skuld would have ever instructed such a thing. But could she blame him, now that she had heard his reasoning? She brushed the dead needles from her hair, deciding she could not. He had done it out of fear.
Protect the boys! The spirit’s voice cut through the chatter. She stood, shaking out her skirts, wondering at the Skuld’s words. How could they ever make this world better for their men if the spirits were so set against them? She began her trek back through the forest, and her thoughts drifted to Asmund. Would there ever be a world where he could use the wild magic?
When she emerged from the woods, she stopped for a moment to sense where the wild magic was gathering. She could feel it swirling around someone. She watched a black bird sail overhead, dipping to alight in the open field before her. It was a graveyard, she always thought. Rows of empty houses, old and dangerously disrepaired, each site a tombstone for those who had lived there. Her eyes went to one house among the rows, the place where Lodvik said Eylaug had taken him. Astrid began to walk stiffly towards it, pulled by whoever was in that place.
When she pushed open the door, she saw Ama, Freya and Sif standing in a circle around Eylaug, who was sitting on the floor with her eyes closed. All four turned their attention to her, but then turned away without greeting. Ama and Freya shifted, making a space for her in the circle. They waited. The wild magic curled around her. She watched Eylaug, listening to the spirits calls. They were angry with Eylaug, just as the Bairns were. Not long after, Helga came through the open door as well. Without prompting, she joined the circle.
Astrid did not know what they were doing. From past experiences, she knew that no one would tell her until after it was done.
Fear. That’s primarily what she felt through the currents of the wild magic. Eylaug’s fear. She reached for Freya’s hand, compelled by the power stirring in the room. Freya took hold of her, and the power within her doubled. Freya’s body glowed. At her other side, Ama grasped for her. She took hold of Ama’s hand and nearly lost herself in the current that surged through her. She begged the spirits not to carry her off. She was holding entirely too much. Fear. Her fear, now. It tightened her throat.
Let go. It was Ama, speaking to her across the flow of the wild magic. She loosened every muscle, and felt the embrace of the power. Then she understood what was happening.
In the center, she saw Eylaug, translucent as glass, and within her, three bright red beating hearts. One was her own, near her chest. The other two were much lower, in her abdomen. One had an orangish hue. The other one was almost pink. Two babies. She looked harder, at the blood, at the runes it carried. All the same. Every rune identical. Two babies. Two girls.
She fell out of consciousness for a moment, drifting in the power, there was a light coming for her, and they were calling her name. Their voices were rough, like gravel. You don’t know what it is you’re doing to us, Astrid! You should not listen to the Skuld. In the distance, watery and ethereal, she heard the other spirit that had been calling to her for days. Protect the boys! She swallowed hard, her mouth like sand. She could taste the age of the earth on her breath.
She blinked and she was on the ground. She felt cold, but she was covered in sweat. Someone nearby was groaning. Freya was angry. She could hear the heat of her fire.
“This is why we’ve been told not to do this,” she said. A hand pressed against her forehead, and then her head was being gently lifted, laid in the skirts of someone’s lap. She opened her eyes, though the effort made her swoon. Freya’s dark hair enveloped her vision. “Stay with me, Astrid,” she said, pleadingly.
Someone else began rubbing her legs. The groaning on the other side of the circle continued. “Eylaug?” she asked.
“Helga is attending her,” Freya said crossly. Astrid’s eyes floated shut again but Freya snapped at her. “Keep your eyes on me, Astrid!” Fear. Freya’s fear had her heart racing. The rubbing continued, the hands moving up her body. She opened her eyes as wide as she could, though they were now stinging with tears as the hands worked. The cold faded from her, replaced with a shuddering nausea. “Keep working, Sif!” Freya called.
“Freya, I’m sick,” Astrid whined. She tried to roll off Freya’s lap, but Freya held her tightly in place. She gagged, then wretched, the bile and sick bubbling from her mouth. Freya allowed her to tilt her head, and she spat on the floor of the house. She recognized now it was Sif who was massaging her, working her arms now, and her neck. Sif’s face was red and slicked with sweat. Freya wiped the edge of her dress across her mouth.
The vomiting had taken away the nausea, and whatever Sif had done to her had worked to bring her more solidly back to the world. The spirits were now just a faint chatter, as they typically were. She sat up slowly, expecting to be dizzy, but she was only fatigued, like the first day up from a sick bed. “What happened?” she asked. She eyed Eylaug, who was still prone. She was crying noiselessly. Ama whispered in her ear.
“Something that we aren’t supposed to do,” she said. “You were almost carried off because of it.” Freya’s words were icy.
“I had to know,” Ama said. “She is my blood sister.”
“And it nearly cost you the life of another of your sisters!” Freya hissed.
Sif’s face looked like ashes, like a clouded sky before the rain. “It was too close,” she murmured, sitting back on her heels and hugging her knees. She wiped a tear from her face, shuddering.
Astrid knew Sif’s greatest fear was being carried off. Her blood sister had chosen it freely, and she had been forced to watch it happen, helpless to stop it. The scar broke open sometimes. Astrid reached for her hand. “I’m safe, Sif. You brought me back.”
Sif wiped another tear from her face. Her color returned. “We can’t do this again. It’s too dangerous. It costs too much.”
All four of her sisters carried their weariness in plain sight, in the way they slumped their shoulders and breathed heavily. Astrid wanted nothing but sleep. “What exactly did we do?” she asked.
Ama and Helga had Eylaug on her feet now, all three straining from the effort, leaning into one another to keep themselves aloft. “You saw, didn’t you?” Ama asked.
She had seen. She had seen the runes in the blood of the babes that Eylaug carried. The runes that marked them as girls. “But why take the risk?” she asked, anger lighting her words. “What good is it to know before the birth?”
“Because I wanted to know if this house is what they say it is,” Helga said.
Astrid drew back in surprise. She did not think of Helga as a risk taker. “Why?” she asked.
“To see if it could solve our problems,” she said.
Freya was steaming beside her, and Sif looked like she would fall over at any second. Astrid itched for the wild magic, her palms tingling. Unconsciously she reached for the rune stones, but Freya stayed her hand. Astrid swallowed down the craving, letting go a long sigh. She looked from Sif to Ama and Helga. All three of them were like stalks in a stiff breeze—swaying, bending, bowing. She felt the idea bubbling up from her depths before she had time to think about what she said. “Destroy the house,” she said. The wild magic swayed, swirling around her, but she ignored it. She looked from one sister to the next, and then to Eylaug, who was staring at her in disbelief. “There is no magic here that can make boys. It is worthless to have it tempt others to try.”
The spirits were pleased with her. She drunk in their delight.
Freya was the first to speak. “We should do as she says,” she said. She felt Freya pulling her to her feet, and she in turn reached for Sif. The three stood uneasily. The weariness was set deep inside her. She was not sure they should use the wild magic at all in their current state.
Freya and Sif were stronger than her though, and they led the way out of the house, Ama and Helga trailing, supporting Eylaug. They set Eylaug gently on the ground outside, then the five Bairns gathered in a line about the house. It was the only one in the row that had not caved or collapsed yet. Freya called the wild magic first, then Sif. Astrid was the last to call, afraid of what it would do it her. But she found it gave her some strength and eased the desperate heaviness in her chest.
Freya pushed the room of the house in, and Sif kept the dust from blowing over them. Helga pushed in the south wall, and Ama the north wall. Astrid scattered the timber away from them, across the field. When they were finished, it looked as if the house had exploded from within. She drained herself of the wild magic, then, overcome with fatigue again, sat down on the ground and closed her eyes.
It was night when she awoke. She rolled over in the grass, finding that Helga was asleep next to her. Her breathing was steady and even, and Astrid felt no fear for her. She sat up slowly. She was still tired, but not in the deadly way she had been before. Ama and Eylaug were nowhere in sight, neither was Sif. But Freya was standing watch over them, a statuesque protector.
“Freya,” Astrid croaked, and Freya reached for her, helped her stand. Their eyes met and she found herself wrapping her arms around Freya’s neck, hugging her close. Freya embraced her, her touch an anchor to the world. Her hair smelled like smoke and earth and rain. Astrid rested the weight of her head against Freya’s shoulder.
Freya released her, and gently rubbing her hands down her arms said, “Go home, Astrid. I will wait with Helga.” Astrid nodded and pulled herself away from the wreck of the house, from the scene that had almost been her death. She went slowly, moving at a snail’s pace through the town, then up the hill to her family’s farm. Each step she took grew heavier as she walked, her muscles aching as she neared the top of the hill. She could see the house and barn, their silhouettes dark against the night sky and the shining moon. One more step, she repeated to herself. Her stomach growled. She had not had any food since yesterday.
She opened the farmhouse door, surprising her mother, father, Aelric, Sigmund and Magnhild, who were all still sitting at the kitchen table drinking ale and playing cards. The fire in the hearth was burning, logs freshly stacked. The smell of fresh bread hung in the air. She leaned against the doorpost, too tired to go any further.
“Astrid!” Sigmund gasped, jumping up and racing to her aid.
“I need food,” she said weakly, as Sigmund walked her to a chair. “And a drink. I’m so thirsty, Sigmund.”
Her mother and Magnhild were moving almost as soon as she had requested sustenance. Soon there was a plate of buttered bread and bacon in front of her, along with a bowl of stewed vegetables and beans. Magnhild brought her a mug and a jar of honey. She thanked them softly and began to eat. The food gave her energy almost immediately, and then she was devouring the meal like a ravenous hound. The family said nothing as she ate. She could feel their confusion and awe through the wild magic. And their fear. Always there was fear.
“Where have you been?” Sigmund asked. Aelric huffed under his breath, and her father turned his eyes away from her.
“I’ve been doing my work,” she said, purposefully cryptic. “And it takes a great effort sometimes.” She began to cry then, which she had not expected at all. “I was almost carried off,” she said. She wiped the heel of her hand across her eyes, shuddering.
None of them moved to comfort her. They did not know how. She finished the stew by tipping the bowl, the broth sliding straight into her mouth. She blotted her lips on her sleeve, and smiled when the garment did not stain. She used the sleeve to dry her face as well, still wet from the tears she had shed. “Thank you,” she said, pushing the bowl and plate away from her. Then she left the table.
No one called goodnight to her as she ascended the stairs.
Sigmund lay awake in the dark, fingering the chain around his neck. The sun would come up soon; the sky was already lightening, the first pale light of dawn peeking through the curtain. He and Magnhild would stay on the farm. It was unusual for the man to take the woman into his family home, but his family had the room, and couldn’t afford to lose him to a different trade in town. He had not been apprenticed to anyone, and there was no use for him to learn medicine or weaving or baking or ale making. Soledge already had all it needed, except farmers. There were never enough farmers.
He rose from the bed as quietly as he could, dressing in the dark. His woman stirred. He thought about waking her, but decided against it. She woke anyway when she heard him creeping across the room to the door. “Where are you going?” she asked sleepily.
“It’s time to get moving,” he said. “Things to do around the farm.”
She sat up and stretched lazily, the covers falling into a pile in her lap. “And what do you want me to do?” she asked, yawning. She smiled brightly at him, almost playfully as she stood up.
Sigmund suddenly did not want to leave the room to do his chores. “What did you do yesterday?” he asked.
She grinned. “I chained you yesterday. I didn’t do any work.”
He laughed, and she came into his arms. “What do you normally do?” he asked.
“Eh,” she said. “I helped my mother with her plants and her herbs, but I don’t think she expects me to anymore.”
“No?” he asked, tucking her hair behind her ear. He dipped his face, kissing her shoulder.
“No,” she said. “She knew I was needed here instead.”
“Well,” Sigmund said, thinking of all the chores he and his brothers did each morning. He thought about the things Astrid used to do, then had an idea. “What if you walked through the fields today, and picked what was ripe?”
“Seems easy,” she said. “And what will you be doing?” She rubbed her face against his neck and his skin prickled from the touch of her lips.
“I milk the goats, then Aelric and I take them to pasture,” he said.
“I can milk goats,” she said, though from her tone and the look in her eyes, he wasn’t sure it was an offer to help with the chores. “And I could go with you to pasture?” she asked.
He considered it, but Aelric might not like it, and there was no reason to change it. Other than his desire for his woman. He slid a hand up her back, and kissed her softly. “I think my mother could use the help in the fields, Magnhild.”
She looked ready to argue, but then nodded her head instead. “If that’s what you want,” she said.
“Get dressed. There should be breakfast soon,” he said. He watched her, feeling lucky that he had been chained by a woman he liked, and not by one the Bairns had chosen for him.
Astrid was not at the breakfast table, but no one commented on it, not even Magnhild. The wild magic took her wherever and whenever it willed. He had not seen her at the party after the fire had been lit. He wondered what had happened to her.
“Did anyone see Astrid last night?” he asked.
His mother was spreading butter onto a bit of bread. She deposited it onto his father’s plate. “She was talking with Lodvik at the back of the house when I brought the boys home,” she said.
“What were they talking about?” he asked. He had heard a rumor about his cousin that unsettled him. He wondered if Astrid knew too. Then he nearly laughed at himself, thinking that of course Astrid knew. She knew everything now.
His mother shrugged. She was buttering a second piece of bread. She bit into it without saying another word about it.
“Did she come home?” Sigmund asked.
“Don’t think so,” she said.
Sigmund tried not to let her answer darken his mood. He wondered what might have prompted her to stay out all night. He did not understand the wild magic. “Magnhild is going to help with the harvesting today,” he said.
His mother brightened, looking at him for the first time since the conversation began. “Oh! That would be lovely Magnhild!” she said to his woman. “I can always use a hand, and the baskets just get too heavy for Josurr and Asmund. So most days it’s just me and Ulfarr.”
“Yes, of course! You should teach me anything that you need help with,” Magnhild said happily. Her posture was stiff. Sigmund rubbed her back and she relaxed. His family would accept her easily, he knew. She did not need to be afraid. He caught Aelric’s look of mild annoyance from across the table. With only a slight raise of an eyebrow, he asked what was wrong, a gesture long-practiced at the table. Aelric gave a tiny roll of his eyes, another long-practiced gesture. Sigmund trusted they would unpack whatever was eating him as soon as they were in the pasture.
Sure enough, as soon as they had shut the goat pen and begun to move after the herd, Aelric spilled. “She’s not going to be happy here,” he said.
“What?” he asked. “Why do you say that?”
“Just look at her face, Sigmund. She might be happy that she’s here with you, but she’s not happy about being in a house full of farmers.”
“We need farms, Aelric. She knows that.”
“Ah, but she had a choice, didn’t she?” he asked. “She could have picked one of the men who apprenticed. Someone who has a trade, so she could stay in town and not get her hands dirty.”
“There aren’t that many,” Sigmund argued. “It’s not like she had a slew of other men to choose from.” Aelric only scoffed in reply. “Plus, most families in town still grow on their land. They have to.” His brother’s sourness only grew. “Why don’t you like her?” he asked.
“It doesn’t matter what I think,” Aelric growled.
Sigmund stepped in front of him, blocking his way forward. Aelric stopped short in surprise, his eyes narrowing. “Move!’ he said.
“Why doesn’t it matter?” Sigmund asked.
“Because I’m a man, Sigmund!” he said, his anger coloring his cheeks. “And so are you. Nobody cares what we think, or what we want. We’re just toys for the women. Ways to get more men so they can keep making new Bairns for the spirits to possess.”
Sigmund clicked his tongue, narrowing his eyes. Aelric was wrong, wrong about everything, but he would never understand. “What do you want instead, Aelric?” he asked smoothly.
Aelric rolled his eyes, but Sigmund didn’t move out of his way. He raised a hand towards the disappearing herd, and made a sound of defeat. “The goats, Sigmund,” he said.
Sigmund glanced over his shoulder, then reluctantly began to follow them. Aelric fell in step beside him. The brothers were quiet for a time, the only sound in the air the wispy crunch of grass under their boots.
The goats reached the pasture and as they began to graze Sigmund and Aelric went to the river’s edge. Aelric pulled up a stalk of grass, peeled the strands and tossed it into the water. Sigmund did not press him to talk, but he could tell by his stance and his occasional gaze that his thoughts were stirring.
“I want to be free, Sigmund,” he finally said. “Everything that happens here…it happens because of the spirits, and the wild magic, and the Bairns. They control everything. They match up men and women in the hopes of making more boys, but all the pairs just end up making more girls too.” He shook his head, eyes staring downriver. “Sometimes I think they aren’t even trying to make boys. Maybe they’re trying to get as many girls as they can.”
“Why would they lie?” he asked, Magnhild’s reading and his own running through his mind. “And their readings are usually right, don’t you think?” he asked.
“They say the runes don’t lie, but something about it all is…off.” As soon as he said the word, Sigmund felt a chill run through him. “Think about it, Sigmund. What happened to us, that we can’t make boys now? What did the Freezing do to us?”
Sigmund shook his head. “I don’t know,” he said heavily, a stone in his belly.
Aelric sighed. He changed the subject. “I like Magnhild,” he said. Then he grinned. “But I’m glad you didn’t bring her with us to pasture.”
Sigmund laughed. “Me too, actually. I like our time together, without women.” Aelric’s smile melted. “What?” he asked.
“How long do you think it’ll be before I have chain around my neck too?” he asked weakly. His hand went reflexively to his throat, as if the chain he imagined choaked him.
Aelric was seventeen years. He had some time before he began to be pressured, but not much. “Is there anyone you’d want?”
He shook his head. “I haven’t looked. Haven’t been looked at,” he said.
Sigmund thought he’d discovered the root of Aelric’s derision for the Bairns. He didn’t want them to pick for him. “Ask Astrid,” he said.
“Astrid?!” Aelric gasped. “Ask her about what?”
“To find you a woman, Aelric. Someone you wouldn’t object to.” He was shaking his head. “Would you rather have Freya or Sif do it?”
His brother shuddered. “I’d rather do it myself,” he said.
“Then you better start,” Sigmund said, “or else they will do it for you.”
Aelric knew that to be true, and nodded fiercely. “Fine,” he said. “I’ll ask Astrid.” He rolled his eyes, yanking another stalk from the ground.
Sigmund placed a hand on his shoulder. “She loves you, Aelric. She’ll want to see you happy.”
“I know,” he said. “But she’ll use her witch magic to find a woman, and then how can I trust the suggestion?”
Sigmund leaned closer to him, whispered his next words. “Because it’s Astrid.” Aelric nodded slowly, but he didn’t look convinced.
Astrid watched the crowd from afar, mingling and celebrating with Sigmund and Magnhild on the green beside the goat pen and the barn. When her mother had come home from her talks with Ranog a week ago, her father had wasted no time before he visited the black smith. The chain Leif had made for Sigmund was gold. Magnhild had slipped it over his head tenderly, but Astrid couldn’t help thinking it was a brand. The delicate chain links glittered in the light of the bonfire, burning as the sun set. The celebration would go long into the night. She watched her brother dancing with his woman as their father and their uncle played their strings. The accompanying clapping and drumming floated to her hidden perch in the shadows.
A man peeled away from the crowd, meandering towards the house where she stood under the eaves. She trailed him with her eyes. In the fading daylight, she couldn’t make out his features until he was within earshot of her call. “Lodvik,” she said.
Her cousin was approaching his 20th year. There were at least four women trying to chain him, but none of their mothers approved. Though he was handsome and kind, he was also a braggart, and had an incredible temper. Admittedly, some of the women who wanted him were young, but there was at least one that would have been an acceptable age. It was not the one whom he had put a child in.
Lodvik started, looking for a moment like he would run from her, but then smiled warmly at her, placing a hand over his thudding heart. “Astrid,” he said, laughing to himself. “I thought you were a Bairn.”
“I am a Bairn,” Astrid said smoothly.
“Yes. I meant one of the other Bairns,” Lodvik said, waving a hand as if to dismiss his silliness. “Why aren’t you at the party?” he asked, moving a few steps towards her.
Her eyes went to the bonfire, now burning fully against the rapidly darkening sky. “Don’t feel too cheery tonight,” she said, thinking of her strange conversation with the Skuld, and the equally as strange conversation with Ama about boys. She watched as her mother ushered Ulfarr, Josurr and Asmund away from the dancing.
“Me either,” Lodvik sighed.
“Because of Eylaug?” she asked, a dare. Lodvik screwed up his face in a grimace. “What’s that look for?”
“I suppose you know all about Eylaug,” Lodvik said.
“I know what Ama told me. That you put a babe in her belly. That she is trying to be a mother so she won’t be a Bairn.”
“What?!” Lodvik’s outburst was nearly a roar, but her mother was approaching with the children, so he stifled it.
“Goodnight, Madir,” Astrid said as they came forward slowly. Her mother was eyeing the two of them, watching their expressions. Astrid put on a sweet smile, though she was feeling cross. “Did you have fun?” she asked her brothers.
Ulfarr shrugged and Josurr merely looked at the dirt, but Asmund’s eyes were bright. “The chain that Magnhild put around Sigmund was so lovely! Don’t you think so, Astrid?”
Lodvik stiffened, and Ulfarr and Josurr tried, but failed, to hide their surprise. “Being chained isn’t…”Lodvik started, but at Asmund’s perfectly innocent expression, he dropped the end of what he was going to say. “Bah!” he said instead. “I suppose it was a lovely trinket.”
“A lovely shackle,” Ulfarr said.
“Hush!” their mother said, giving the three boys a push forward into the house. “Go on to bed. Stop dismissing the things you don’t understand.” She pushed past Astrid and Lodvik, the boys going before her into the doorway.
“I wonder where he got that idea?” Lodvik asked. He sounded amused. Pleased, almost.
“From Aelric and my father,” she said. She eyed him suspiciously, like he was snake. “Maybe from you, too.”
“I never put ideas like that into his head!” he replied, wagging a finger in her face.
Astrid took hold of his hand, pushing it slowly down and away from her. “Don’t do that,” she instructed.
Lodvik paled. “Sorry,” he muttered. “It’s just…Eylaug…”
“Why did you do it?” she asked, crossing her arms and giving him a baleful stare.
“She made me!” he yelled. His cheeks were growing hot; she could see the color even in the dark.
“She made you?” Her words dripped with her skepticism.
“She took me to that… that place! She said the wild magic was thick there. Said it could make boys!” Astrid raised her eyebrow. “What was I supposed to do?! I thought she was like you! I thought she had gone to the Skuld and asked!”
He was too loud. The boys and her mother would hear. “Walk with me,” she said, before she quickly trotted away, heading towards the street. She heard his exasperated sigh, and then some muttering, and then his footsteps as he trailed after her. She moved more slowly, waiting for him to catch her, then walked side by side with him down the dirt road towards the rows of houses that sat empty, separating her family’s farm from the main residences of Soledge.
“Where are we going?” he asked.
“Away from where they can hear your temper,” she said. She had crossed her arms. The wild magic was moving. She itched to catch it.
“I don’t understand why you’re angry,” Lodvik said. She gave him a withering sneer. “Look, a woman came to me and said she could use the wild magic to make a boy. What was I supposed to do, Astrid? Say no?”
“She’s fifteen, Lodvik!” Astrid countered, knowing this should have been enough of an argument.
But it only inflamed him. “I know!” he yelled, throwing his hands up. He stopped, placed his hands on his hips and stared up at the stars. She could feel him calming, his slow steady breaths bringing his racing heart to a level pace. “I know,” he said again, quietly. “But you and the Bairns tell us to do all sorts of things that none of us would think of on our own.”
“She’s not a Bairn…” she tried to argue.
“I didn’t know!” he said. “I didn’t!” She heard the truth in his words, felt the crystal ring of them through the threads of the wild magic. “I had no idea what to think. She could have been called. She could have been doing it because of what someone else told her to do.” His eyes had gone wide. “You witches are unpredictable!”
“I am not a witch,” she spat.
He recovered quickly, ignoring her anger, and the wild magic that danced between them as she began to let it fill her. “Well maybe not,” he said. “But you’re an iron rod, Astrid, beating us all into submission. Not giving any of us a choice!”
“You have plenty of choice, Lodvik. There are always too many women and girls…”
“What if I don’t want a woman, Astrid?” he asked. “Huh? Do you think of that?” She drew back from him, confused about what he was saying. “What if I don’t want my whole life to be about being chained and trying to make boys?”
The spirits stirred and she heard the same voice from before calling to her. Protect the boys! The arguing had grown worse. She shook her head, dismissing the hissing calls. “Nobody says you have to have a woman, Lodvik,” she said.
“You know that’s not true. You know Freya would haul me off to whatever woman would have me if she knew I could make boys.” His anger was crisp, tart, fresh.
“You can make boys too?” she asked. He nodded, casting his eyes to the ground. “Who told you?”
“Ama,” he said heavily. “Eylaug made me ask her to read the runes.”
Astrid’s palms itched, the stones calling to be cast. “Let me do a reading for you Lodvik,” she asked, hiding her urgency from him.
“What?” he asked. “No.”
“Please?” she pressed.
He shrugged, then crossed his arms again, nodding his consent.
Astrid drew the rune stones from the pouch one by one until they were all heavy in her hand. She called to the wild magic, and it filled her, transformed her into a vessel for its power. She was only mildly aware of her hair flying about her, and her robes rippling as she pressed her lips together and closed her eyes. She cast the stones to the dirt. She smelled the burning, saw the flash of fire through her closed eyelids. She opened her eyes to view the casting. The hole. The cloud. The man. The ring.
She nearly hissed as the spirits chattered to her. He can make them, but he won’t. She raised her eyes to him, and he knew from her expression that the reading was not favorable. She was hesitating, anticipating the questions he might ask, but she was taking too long. She felt his anxiety brewing.
“What do they say?” he asked, and she could taste his fear.
“You can make boys, Lodvik,” she said. “But you won’t.”
“I won’t?” he asked. He frowned and his fear boiled to anger. “What do you mean I won’t? Is something going to happen to me?”
“I don’t know, Lodvik,” she answered truthfully.
“What about Eylaug? What about the baby in her belly? Is it not a boy?” he asked.
“The runes don’t lie,” she offered, feeling small under his wrath.
“Well…will the baby die, then? Will Eylaug? Come on, Astrid, that can’t be all to the reading!”
“I’m sorry, Lodvik,” she said, but he interrupted.
“Or maybe I’ll try and I’ll only make girls? That happens too, right? You say to a man ‘you can make boys’, but then he never does.”
“I don’t know, Lodvik!” she yelled at him. He quieted, the fear slithering back into him at her ire. “I don’t know,” she said again, more tenderly.
“Then what good are you?” he asked. It was unfair, but she didn’t argue with him. She watched him walk down the hill alone, his back as stiff as a rod, his footsteps as heavy as iron.
Sigmund watched the flowing water of the stream, thinking only of Magnhild’s revelation to him. Freya—the Bairn who scared him most—had done a reading for her. She would mother three boys. They would be his boys, he knew. When he asked Astrid to read the runes for him two nights ago, he had had Magnhild in mind. He wanted a reason for her to choose him, to mark him with a silver chain. It would keep other women away from him if she claimed him. He didn’t want any of the other women.
“You’re moody today,” his brother, Aelric said, tossing a stalk of grass into the stream. The sparking water carried it away from the place where they stood on the bank. Behind them the goats were grazing, but the sun was descending, and they would need to move towards home soon.
“Astrid read the runestones for me,” he said, watching his brother’s face.
Aelric raised an eyebrow at his admission. “Did you ask her? Or did she use her witch magic on you without your consent?”
“She’s not a witch, Aelric,” Sigmund said. Aelric and their father did not approve of Astrid’s choice. Sigmund knew better. He knew Astrid did not have a choice in the matter once the spirits decided they wanted her.
“Oh, I know she’s not a witch,” Aelric sighed. “But she’s not a woman either.” Sigmund eyed him scornfully. “She’ll be like Freya and Sif, don’t you think?”
“She’ll never be like that, Aelric. It’s Astrid! She’s not cunning and dark and proud.”
Aelric pulled another stalk from the ground, twirled it between his fingers before tossing it into the stream too. “I supposed you’re right,” he said begrudgingly. “So, why did you ask?” he said, turning his gaze on his brother.
“I asked because I wanted to know,” Sigmund said. He studied Aelric’s face, watching his doubts dance in his eyes. “Don’t you?”
“It doesn’t matter,” he said definitively. He crossed his arms. “Boys or girls, it makes no difference. Someday some woman will hang a chain around my neck either way.”
Sigmund narrowed his eyes. There was something Aelric wasn’t saying. “But if you knew you could make boys, then you could have whatever woman you wanted. They’d all be after you. You could have your pick.”
Aelric’s eyes grew even harder, his frown deepening. The goats bleated but neither of the men turned to look at the heard. Sigmund put his hands on his hips, lifting his chin in a defiant posture as he waited for Aelric’s argument.
“You know why they all want boys so bad?” Aelric asked, and when Sigmund didn’t reply, he continued. “They want boys so they can keep making girls. So they can keep turning girls into witches.”
“They aren’t witches!” Sigmund snapped.
The goats were moving further from the stream. The sound of their bleating grew softer. “Come on,” said Sigmund, hastening to catch up with the herd.
The brothers moved across the fields, skirting the woods and the long-abandoned houses that that been stripped of every useful item when the survivors of the Freezing had emerged from the long winter of the disaster. Few were stable, and more collapsed every year. There was one in particular that drew Sigmund’s eye as they moved past. It was the place where young women sometimes brought a young man to see if she could get a boy from him before she hung her chain around his neck. Magnhild had wanted to take him there. She said the wild magic that inhabited the walls of the old house could make boys. Sigmund declined, not wanting to go anywhere near the wild magic. He said he would ask his sister about it instead. And she had told him exactly what he had hoped to hear.
He and Astrid had gone out of the house, walking up to the hill that overlooked the goat pen and the barn. The moon was full. She lost the color in her eyes and her hair as she cast the rune stones into the grass. The wild magic tingled around him, like static pricking his every part. The hair on his arms and legs stood, and a shiver went through him as he watched the wild magic burn the runes on the stones. The runes glowed red hot before cooling to the deepest black. He recognized one, but not the other three. Other men, older men, had told him of the rune—the man. It was the important one to look for in a casting, they said. If you could make boys, it would show up on one of the stones.
He wet his lips, waiting for Astrid’s reading. She smiled briefly, but it seemed a sad smile. “You can make boys, Sigmund,” she said heavily.
His brother’s question drew him out of his memories. “Did you know Lodvik went there, with his woman?” Aelric said, nodding in the direction of the house.
“Which one?” Sigmund asked. Their cousin had several women who wished to put a chain around his neck, but they were all young, and their mothers had not consented.
“Eylaug,” Aelric said. His voice was cold.
Eylaug’s sister, Ama, was a Bairn. Everyone was always wary of a younger sister, waiting for her to be called as well. “Are you sure?” Sigmund asked. “She’s only fifteen years.” Sigmund shrugged. “Did it work?”
“He said she has a babe in her belly,” Aelric said.
A cold dread crept up from his stomach. “That seems…”
“Wrong?” Aelric interrupted. “These women…they don’t care! They only care about boys, and who can make them. If it turns out that Lodvik didn’t make a boy, you think she’ll want him then?”
Sigmund shook his head, not wanting Aelric’s sourness about women to infect him. “It won’t matter. There are so many others. Someone will chain him,” he said.
Aelric scoffed, but didn’t say any more. Sigmund wondered why he’d become this jaded, this disinterested and dismissive. “It’s not the women who do this, Aelric,” he reminded his brother. “It’s the spirits.”
Aelric ground his teeth, grimacing at his brother’s words. “The spirits are women, Sigmund. Didn’t Astrid tell you that?”
They walked the goats back to the pen in silence.
In the house, Astrid was spooning soup from the pot into bowls and passing them to Asmund and Ulfarr, the two youngest brothers. Josurr, the middle brother, was pouring ale into the mugs laid out for each family member. Their father, Karl, was already seated at the table. Their mother was nowhere to be seen.
“Where’s Madir?” Sigmund asked, his thoughts drifting to Magnhild.
His father lifted his eyes, a lazy smile parting his lips as he gazed at his oldest son. “She’s with Ranog,” he said. The smile grew wider. “Negotiating.”
Sigmund’s heart fluttered and his eyes went to the gold chain hanging from his father’s neck. He reasoned that Magnhild must have told her mother about him.
Aelric punched him playfully on the arm. “You think you’ll get what you want?” He was jovial, but given his earlier surliness over the same topic, Sigmund imagined he was putting on an act for their father.
Astrid came to the table with the final two bowls. “I did not expect her to be this long,” she said.
Her comment made Karl frown. The boys all took seats at the table silently, sensing his displeasure. Astrid did not sit. Sigmund watched the color melt from her hair as it began to dance. The fear that always crept over him when Astrid used the wild magic made a slow crawl through his gut. His fingers tingled.
“None of your witchcraft in my house!” Karl scolded, looking momentarily stern. It soon faded into an ashy gray fear as he realized what he had done.
But Astrid was not like the other Bairns. She did not hold herself higher than any man, least of all her father. Yet, she did not let go of the wild magic either. “You should ask Leif to make a new chain, Padir.” Her voice was deep, like roots, like a well. “You will need it.” She sat, and the color came back into her hair and her eyes. She lifted her bowl to her lips, sipping the broth.
Sigmund ate slowly, thinking about Magnhild. Thinking about their boys.
Astrid stirred her finger around the pool that the rain had left in the road. The water swirled with dirt as her finger glided through it. Her youngest brother, Asmund, watched her closely. He dipped his finger into the pool as well, imitating her movements. Astrid smiled at him, but thought it best not to encourage him any further. “You won’t be able to use the wild magic, Asmund. For you, it’s just dirt and water.”
“Why?” Asmund asked. He was the youngest of the family, the youngest of six children. Astrid was the oldest child of the family, and the only girl. Since becoming a Bairn, she had been trying to discover why that was.
“The spirits keep the wild magic to themselves. They only share it with girls,” she said.
“That’s not fair,” Asmund said.
“It’s not,” she agreed. The spirits did not like men and boys. They made that clear to her too frequently. But Astrid had spent her life caring for boys, watching her mother be overcome with joy each time she birthed another boy. She had wanted a sister so badly, but brothers were not all bad. They were loud, and they were rough, and they could be impossibly hard and sometimes cruel. But so could girls. Astrid shivered as she felt Freya’s energy swirl to her through the stream of wild magic that connected them. Freya was just as impossible as any man.
“What is the pool telling you?” Asmund asked, withdrawing his finger from the water.
“If the rain will come again soon, or if this is the last for the season.” It was early for the rains to dry up, but it had been a dry season. Their gardens were withering. The winter would be sparse.
“And?” Asmund prompted.
“It will rain again, Asmund,” she said, smiling. “We should leave the fruits on the vine a little longer.”
“And the wood sorrel? The sea-kelp? The watercress?” Asmund asked, naming the greens their family cultivated in their gardens. “Harvest or let it grow?”
Astrid let her heart swell with love for her brother, for his simplicity, for his devotion to her judgment. “Let it grow for now, Asmund. Madir and Patir will know when to harvest.”
Asmund drug a foot through the dirt, waiting for further instructions from her, but Astrid’s attention focused on Freya’s movements. She was coming and she was holding the wild magic. Astrid rose from her crouch, and gently ushered Asmund back towards the house. “Go inside, dumpling,” she said, steering him away from Freya’s approach.
Asmund obeyed without complaint, shutting the door of the house tightly behind him. Children, and especially boy children, learned early to do as the Bairns commanded.
Freya turned the corner, coming up the row of houses towards where Astrid stood in the road. The sun highlighted her dark hair, silken like a raven wing, shining like a beetle shell. Freya’s eyes were white with magic, the edges of her robes billowing with its power. As she approached, the color faded from her hair. Astrid was drawn to her, like a fish on a hook. She took a step forward, unable to resist Freya’s pull.
Freya did not speak until she was two steps from Astrid. “Your brother can make boys,” she said.
Astrid knew which one. She had read his runes as his request. “Sigmund,” she said.
Freya was pleased. Her smile blossomed slowly like an unfolding rose. “He knows this?”
Astrid nodded. “He came to me two nights ago, Freya. Asking what all boys ask of us.” She crossed her arms. “How did you learn of it?”
“Magnhild,” she said.
Astrid needed no further explanation. A woman asked. A woman got an answer. “And you came to see if I had told him already?” she guessed.
Freya nodded slowly, her smile drooping slightly.
Sigmund, her oldest brother, was in his 19th year. She had anticipated this conversation with him for at least two years. It didn’t mean her stomach wasn’t in knots.
Freya sensed her nerves. “A man who can make boys shouldn’t wait to try, Astrid,” Freya reminded her. “We need new boys.”
There had been no newborn boys in the last year. Only girls. Five baby girls. “I know.”
Freya’s smile grew conspiratorial. “Did he like the news?” she said. “Almost all of them do.”
Astrid laughed despite her anxieties. Sigmund had almost cried with relief at her reading. “But just because he can, doesn’t mean he will. You know it doesn’t work that way.”
“When I read the runes for Magnhild, she asked if I knew how many boys she would have,” Freya said. Her eyes sparkled with excitement. “The runes showed me three.”
“Three boys,” she whispered. Her fingers itched, the rune stones nearly vibrating in their pouch, wanting to be cast. She ignored the urge, wiping her suddenly sweating palms on her white skirt. “And you’re sure that Magnhild will ask to chain Sigmund?”
“Why wouldn’t she?” Freya asked. Her tone was incredulous. “She asked me if her man can make boys, and now she knows she will have three of them. She will put the two pieces together, won’t she?”
Freya thought all men were toys, means to an end, pieces on the board to use as she pleased. But this was her brother they were talking about. “I want him to be happy, Freya,” she said.
Freya’s look grew taunting, almost sneering. “He will be happy if he makes boys, Astrid.”
Astrid sighed, knowing the truth in Freya’s words. He would be happy with Magnhild or anyone else—it wouldn’t matter, not if he could make boys. Making boys was more important than anything else.
“I can taste your fear,” Freya said tenderly, taking her hand.
Astrid squeezed her sister’s hand before pulling it away. Freya released her as tenderly as she had grasped her. “When I became a Bairn, I didn’t realize it would involve match making for my brothers.”
Freya raised an eyebrow. “You’ve read the runes for all of them?”
Astrid shook her head. “No, but I’ve read the runes for myself,” she explained.
Freya released some of the wild magic she was holding, letting it dance around them. She sighed, emptying herself until her eyes were dark and her hair was coal black again. Her cloak ceased its rippling. “What did the runes say?” she asked.
Her purpose was written on her white stone, the one with her true name, but she wouldn’t speak the name aloud. If she did it would lose its power. “It’s me who will make sure the boys are born. I’ll make the matches. I’ll find the mothers. I’ll witness the births. I’ll read the runes for anyone who needs help. This is why the spirits chose me.”
Freya nodded. “It seems fitting for you,” she said.
Astrid’s eyes wandered to Freya’s dark expression. “Why do you think this?” she asked.
Freya gave a half-shrug, then scrunched up her nose, sniffing the air. “All the men that surround you,” she said.
Astrid stared at her, an attempt to coax more of Freya’s thoughts to the surface through her silence. Freya did not look away, nor did she expound. Astrid nodded slowly, one bob of the head to indicate that line of the conversation was finished. She thought of her five brothers, and the seven boy cousins from her father’s two brothers—a dozen men to pair off, a dozen of men to doubt her sight.
“You don’t believe they will trust you?” Freya asked.
Astrid glanced towards the house, her eyes settling on the window of the room where Asmund slept. “Not that,” she said. “They all would trust me to do it right.”
Freya sniffed again, then smiled. “Oh, I see it now,” she said, almost happily. “The fear is that you will do it wrong.”
Astrid wanted to grind her teeth but fought the urge. “You see much, don’t you?” she asked instead, tasting the sarcasm.
Freya leaned closer to her, her breath falling on Astrid’s cheek. “I see you, Astrid. You are my sister.” Her words were honeyed with affection, though Astrid wasn’t in the mood for the sweetness of the gift. Yet, she didn’t pull away, not even a hairsbreadth. Freya felt her refusal of the compliment, nonetheless. She withdrew.
Astrid’s tension melted, and she let a long sigh escape. “It wearies me,” she admitted. “The women expect boys from a man who comes with the right blood.” She paused, knowing she didn’t need to speak the next words. Freya knew well enough the struggles of Soledge.
Freya sucked her teeth, and Astrid could feel her unease over how to reply. “The right blood is perhaps not all there is,” she said. “But the runes are never wrong.”
“Three boys,” she said, thinking of what Sigmund would say when Magnhild placed her chain around his neck, marking him as hers, claiming him and the runes in his blood for her own. She wondered if the spirits would ask for him to make boys with other mothers. It would be trouble between them. Magnhild did not strike Astrid as gracious or willing to share anything that was hers.
“Three,” Freya repeated.
Astrid nodded. Her fingers itched. She looked down to the dirt where Asmund had crouched. The imprint of his shoes was still there in the street. “Asmund tries to learn the wild magic,” she said, not looking up.
Freya’s demeanor grew cold. It nearly made Astrid shiver, though the morning sunshine was bright around them. “The wild magic does not take boys,” she sneered.
“I know this, as does he,” she said. “But it does not keep him from asking questions.”
“Then you must keep him from asking questions,” Freya said.
Astrid’s ire rose, coloring her cheeks. “It is easy for you and Sif to hate men,” she snapped. “It is not as easy for the rest of us.”
Freya drew back from her, as if the words had burned her. “Hate men?” she asked. “Why would you ever think I hate men?”
“They are useless to you,” she said. “To us! To the Bairns!” she exhaled heavily, an attempt to release her anger. “I see you too, Freya,” she said. “You think men are nothing.”
Freya was shaking her head, denying the words even though there was a sparkle in her eye that suggested Astrid was right. “Oh no, Astrid,” she said. “Men are not nothing,” she said. “Men are everything. Without men, do you think we’d have any baby girls at all?” She smiled sweetly, the way her madir would if she was pleased with the biscuits she had baked.
Astrid grumbled something unintelligible, even to herself. “Tell anyone who asks not to pick any fruits yet,” she said, glancing back down at the puddle, then lifting her eyes to the sky. “It will rain tomorrow. After that would be the best time.”
Freya nodded to her, then softly swept past, trailing her perfectly white dress in the dirt behind her. It didn’t collect any of the dust.
Sif stood outside the apothecary, watching through the window as Hrist and her granddaughter, Edda, worked. The girl was smiling as something the older woman was saying. Sif wondered if she was telling a joke, recanting a story, or offering praise for Edda’s work. Sif had watched the pair for well over an hour. The sun was nearly at its peak. Her stomach grumbled for food, but she ignored it. She wanted to understand why Edda was so important, and why she had scared Ulfrun so much that she had chosen to be carried off.
There was a crunch of boots behind her in the road. She turned, feeling the approach of another Bairn. She glowered at Mjoll seemed to float to her side.
“You,” she sneered.
Mjoll was not unraveled by her disgust. “So, you’ve found her too?” she asked, pointing to the girl inside the apothecary.
Sif didn’t answer. She did not like or trust Mjoll. She blamed her for Ulfrun’s recklessness.
“It was not my doing,” Mjoll said. “Ulfrun chose to be taken.”
“But it was you who made her believe there was something more to be had than this life.”
Mjoll smiled to herself. “I wanted to see if she really could climb the great tree.”
“You should have tried it yourself, instead of encouraging her.”
“And why would I have done that?” Mjoll asked, her tone harsh. Her eyes were hard, unforgiving. “I couldn’t go first. What if it had been a lie?”
Sif felt blinded by a wall of rage. “So you baited her, threw her away for your own gain, so that you wouldn’t lose everything if you were wrong?”
Mjoll sneered, leaning closer to her. “I have lived a longer life than any of you,” she said. “I did not get to be so old by being recklessness.”
Sif looked turned away from Mjoll, watching Edda and Hrist again. Hrist was pouring a yellow liquid into glass vials and handing them to Edda. She stoppered them and placed them in a tray. “When you climb the great tree, I hope you find it a pleasant death,” Sif said to Mjoll without looking at her.
“It is a tree of life, Sif,” Mjoll said.
Despite her anger, Sif frowned, feeling embarrassed by her confusion. She resisted the urge to look at Mjoll again, wishing she would go away.
Mjoll leaning closer and whispered in her ear. “If you don’t believe me, look for your sister in the fires.”
Sif held her mouth tightly shut, refusing to engage with her sister Bairn. She watched Edda and Hrist until Mjoll moved so far down the road that she could no longer feel her presence through the pull of the wild magic.
The bed felt huge without Ulfrun in it. The last two nights had been terrible without her. She was cold. She had cried. She wished she still had Bodil. But she was alone now. She would always be alone.
She rose from the bed, unable to sleep. The fire had burned down to coals. She pulled another log from the stack net to the hearth and laid it over the coals. She waited for it to catch before she sat down in front of it, watching the flames. They danced wildly, without pattern, without meaning. The spirits chattered. They urged her to rest. They urged her to cast the stones. She itched with the pull of the wild magic. She closed her eyes and released her breath, letting go of all the tension in her body.
When she had calmed, she opened her eyes, to find that the log had nearly burned out. She placed another one into the hearth, and watched as it caught the flame. Her eyes moved along its length, looking for patterns, looking for meanings, looking for anything that might be Ulfrun. She sighed, knowing it was fruitless.
But then there was a voice amongst the chattering spirits, a voice she recognized. She stared harder at the flames, watching in awe and hope as they swirled into a face. Ulfrun’s face. She dipped her face closer to the flames as the fiery image of Ulfrun lifted her hand to her face, as if kissing her palm, the gently tipped it away, as if blowing something out of her palm.
A shower of sparks flew out of the fire and singed Sif’s cheek. She turned her face away, surprised but the pain. When she glanced back to the fire, the Ulfrun’s fiery face was gone.
She touched the spot where the fire had burned her, a kiss from beyond. A kiss from the roots of the great tree. She drew her cloak tighter around her and watched the fire burn.
Sif liked to use the tame magic when no one else was looking. Her family had a gray, L shaped device that was light enough to hold in one hand. The handle was about the length of her hand, and the barrel was a little longer and had more girth. When switched on, it blew hot air. She used it on her hair sometimes. Other times she used it simply to get warm. She had no idea what it’s intended purpose was. Not even Skogul knew for sure. She shut herself into the room she shared with Ulfrun, latched the door so she would not be disturbed. Sif put the end with the prongs into the white power source on the wall. She held the device in one hand and used her thumb to press the switch. The machine whirred to life, the inner workings of it glowing a dull orange. She put the end where the air come out up to her face. The wind it generated was gloriously hot.
She moved the machine all along her limbs, until she felt less frozen. Then she flipped the switch and pulled the pronged end from the wall, carefully coiled the black cord and placed the device on the bedside table. Then she wrapped a shawl around her shoulders and hovered over the fire. Ulfrun had built it high and hot for her, before leaving her to her private use of the tame magic. Sif crouched near the flames, savoring the heat. Her face began to cook, but she reveled in it. She closed her eyes, listening to the spirits.
The fire speaks…She’s a liar!…Danger! Back away!…Watch for me in the fires…I see you…You’ll burn! Among the confusing litany of encouragement, babble and warnings was a chorus of laughter—merry, eerie, menacing. She had counted at least four spirits who laughed at her, another three who wailed, and a dozen who warned her not to look into the fires. There was only one who encouraged her to seek her in the flames.
Sif opened her eyes and peered into the hearth, where the soft flicker of orange light licked the stones and cinders. She watched for something, anything, in the fire. She saw only the flames.
I see you, Sif…
She rose from the fireplace, shutting out the sound of the spirit’s voice. It was familiar. Sif sighed uneasily, wondering if Ulfrun also had the same suspicion.
A soft knock at the door drew her attention. “Come,” she said weakly, feeling drained.
Ulfrun slowly pressed the door open, stepping into the room silently. Her hair was no longer floating around her face, and her eyes were deep green again. “Did you see her?” she asked, smiling slyly. She looked like a fox.
There was no use pretending she didn’t understand. “No,” she answered. “I only heard her voice.”
Ulfrun’s eyes went blank for a moment, and Sif felt the wild magic dance around her. She itched to cast the stones. Her fingers went to her belt pouch, where her rune stones rested. They felt hot, as if the wild magic has already burned the runes onto their surfaces. Sif drew the stones from the pouch one by one, cradling them in her hand. They were blank, but they were as hot as if they had sat in the hearth. She looked at her sister, who was still entranced, then cast the stones to the floor.
The runes appeared in a flash of red, like a pen of flame writing them against the stone. The circle. The spear. The raven. The tree.
Sif shuddered as the wild magic flowed through her. The electric energy of it coursed through her limbs, lighting her like an oiled rag. The wild magic blazed across her vision. She laughed at her diminutive stature in the grandness of the universe. She felt reduced to dust by the flow of magic and she welcomed it.
“I will climb the great tree,” Ulfrun said.
The words grounded her. It was her casting. She should have been the one to read them first.
Her anger flared, replaced by dread as she realized these were the same words that Mjoll had used. Sif looked to her rune stones, frowning. “The tree will be your death, Ulfrun,” she said.
“I am not afraid of death, Sif,” her sister said, smiling like a cat.
“Just afraid of little girls,” Sif taunted.
The wild magic swirled, a cloud of power surrounding the two of them. Sif felt her breath steal away from her lungs, as if the wild magic was pulling it from her body. She gasped, feeling heavy, weary, as the wild magic pressed on her. She called to it, gathering it into herself. She felt her body run with it, fluid and light, like water. Ulfrun’s eyes were white as ice, her hair a mass of palest spider silk, free floating around her shoulders. Her skin was like milk.
“You hold too much,” Sif scolded.
Ulfrun laughed, drawing more of the wild magic to her. She sparked, and Sif stepped backwards in horror. “Ulfrun!” she screamed.
Her sister released the wild magic, letting it rush from her like a river. Sif calmed her heartbeat, steadied her breath. Ulfrun looked spent. She collapsed at Sif’s feet. Sif only stared at her, amazed, saddened, disgusted, afraid. After a long moment, Sif bent to pick up her rune stones, placing each white stone tenderly back into her belt pouch. Ulfrun did not stir as she worked. When she had finished, Sif pressed her palm to Ulfrun’s forehead. She was clammy, chilled, but sweating. Sif lifted her from the floor, and gently walked her to the bed. Ulfrun lay still, stiff as a bone, her breathing slow and deep.
Her eyes shifted towards Sif’s. “I am not afraid of little girls,” Ulfrun said, as if the accusation was more important than her nearly being carried off by the wild magic.
“Do you hear yourself, Ulfun?” Sif asked. She leaned closer. “You are like a drunkard when it comes to the wild magic. You will be carried off if you do not temper yourself.”
“I won’t,” Ulfrun said. “I know how to control it. She showed me.”
“The spirit in the fire?” Sif asked, crossing her arms.
“Yes. She showed me how to become empty, so I can be filled with the wild magic.”
Sif shook her head. “This is not safe Ulfrun…”
Her sister interrupted her. “Because of how much power I can control?”
“No,” Sif said firmly. “It’s not safe because it’s not a spirit that’s speaking to you from the fire.” Ulfrun raised an eyebrow, curious, confused, perhaps concerned. Sif sighed at the expression. “It’s not a spirit, Ulfrun,” she repeated. “It’s Mjoll.”
Ulfrun’s glare said more than her words could. “It’s not Mjoll!” Ulfrun snapped.
“Look for yourself,” Sif said, pointing at the hearth, remembering the voice. The fire popped, sending a shower up sparks up the chimney—an ominous warning.
Ulfrun slid heavily from the bed, slunk past her, eyes locked on her own until she was in front of the hearth. She bent down, peering into the flames. She called the wild magic. Sif drifted to her side, drawn to the power.
Sif looked too, though she was sure what she would see. Mjoll was standing in the flames, reaching her arms upwards. She was calling. Ulfrun! Can you see it?
Ulfrun smiled at the fire, though it looked like she didn’t fully understand what was happening. “See? It’s not Mjoll,” she said.
Sif frowned at her sister then looked back at the figure she saw, the fiery face a perfect image of their most terrifying sister. Mjoll as a skull. Mjoll as a snake. Mjoll as a blossoming flower, as a rushing wind, as a falcon. Mjoll with her hair spread out like roots. Mjoll bursting to flame as she climbed higher into the branches of the great tree. “Who do you see?” she asked Ulfrun, unwilling to push the issue anymore.
“It’s the first spirit, the one who learned how to speak to us from the next life,” Ulfrun said softly. Her voice was hushed with reverence. “The great tree herself.”
The first spirit. What could this mean?
Ulfrun felt her confusion through the threads of power that tied them together. Running back towards her along the strands of it, she felt Ulfrun’s pleasure. Sif sniffed in annoyance. “The Skuld told me that one of us was close to being carried off. You dance too close to the fire, Ulfrun.”
Ulfrun closed her eyes, calling more wild magic. It filled her, whitening her hair to the tips. Sif pulled back from her, resisting the urge to do the same. The spirits chattered. She is deceived…Ulfrun belongs with us…She is too…She seeks what cannot be…She will destroy herself…Sif brushed her hand over Uflrun’s hair. She crackled with wild magic.
Ulfrun opened her eyes, but looked straight into the fire instead of at her sister. “Read the fires, Sif,” she whispered.
Sif looked, but now she saw nothing. She did not know the patterns of the fire. She recalled the Skuld’s words. The fire was constant movement that could not be made into meaning. Not like the stones. Not like the bones or stars. “The fire can’t be read, Ulfrun. It is untamable.”
Ulfrun laughed. “Yes, and that is why you must become untamable too.”
Sif took her sister’s chin between her fingers and slowly turned her head so they were looking at one another. “Do not do this, Ulfrun.” She filled her voice with pleading, hoping that it would keep her sister near her. “I do not want to lose you to the spirits.”
“Do you see, Sif?” Ulfrun asked. “The spirits have more power than we do. We should want to be carried away. They will help us climb the tree.”
Sif shook her head. The spirits wailed. She fought her tears. “No,” she said. “Ulfrun, no.”
“It’s in the runes, sister,” she said, taking Sif’s hand in her own. “You read the runes.” She stroked her lovingly. “If it’s in the runes, then it must be true.”
Sif bit her lip, forcing aside the desire to cast her rune stones again. “I must see the Skuld,” she said breathlessly. She rose from the floor, dropped Ulfrun’s hand, and ran from the house. Waiting for her in the street outside were Helga and Ama. Ama seemed grave, and Helga was cross.
Sif gulped guiltily. “I drew you to us with my terror,” she said, guessing at why they were outside her home.
Helga shook her head. “Ulfrun is not safe, Sif,” she said.
She nodded. “Ulfrun has lost her mind,” agreeing fiercely. “She will be carried off if we do not stop her.”
Ama’s eyes sparkled with tears. “Even if we intervene, we may still lose her later, Sif,” she said.
Helga nodded, her frown heavy. “The wild magic is corrupting. This is why we tell you not to cast every time you have the urge. Too much and you become wild like the magic itself.”
“Like Mjoll,” Sif said.
“Like Ulfrun,” Helga said. She stepped forward, pushing open the door of the house, not waiting to be invited or explaining what she intended to do. Ama followed on her heels, leaving Sif standing in the road for just a moment before she too entered the house.
“What is going on here?” Sif’s madir asked, getting up from the chair where she was sewing and putting her hands on her hips.
Helga and Ama ignored her, and moved towards the bedroom where Sif had left Ulfrun staring at the fire. Sif caught her madir’s eye, hastily looking away, before running after the other Bairns.
“Sif!” her madir called, but Sif shut the door of the bedroom without an answer.
In the room, Helga and Ama had taken up position on either side of Ulfrun, who was white, flowing with the wild magic, looking as if she stood outside in a gale. Her white hair streamed around her, the hem of her dress and cloak swirling and billowing about her legs. She had her head tilted back, eyes closed, mouth open. She was alternately smiling and grimacing.
Helga took hold of her hair and jerked hard. Ulfrun exclaimed, dropping some of the wild magic that she held. Ama took hold of her arms, and Sif watched in amazement as Ama drew more of the wild magic from her—like poison from a wound. Ulfrun jerked against the slippery feel of the power flowing out of her. The wild magic danced around the three Bairns, dissipating after a few seconds of swirling.
Helga squeezed Ulfrun’s face between her thumb and her fingers. “You are damaging yourself, Ulfrun. You must stop this.”
Ulfrun laughed, a deep, terrible laugh that started as a rumble in her belly and grew until it drowned out the chattering of the spirits. “You don’t see as I do, Helga. This body makes you weak. To be strong, you must abandon it.”
Sif clenched her teeth, feeling utterly helpless to save her sister from a fate she seemed determined to choose. “Ulfrun, please,” she begged.
Ulfrun went still, letting go of the wild magic slowly, until her red blonde hair was calm and her garments hung limp. Helga and Ama released her, waiting anxiously for what she would do. Ulfrun pace the room towards her and Sif opened her arms. Ulfrun drew her to herself, squeezing her tight. “Ulfrun, you are untamable,” Sif whispered. “Like the fire. Let that be enough.”
She knew as soon as she felt the wild magic stirring that these had been the wrong words to persuade Ulfrun. “I am the like the fire,” she said, releasing Sif as she called the wild magic. Her eyes went white, and then her hair, and her skin, until she looked as white at the fallen snow. She closed her eyes crackling, the wild magic too much for her. The spirits chattered. She will ascend…she has chosen death…Ulfrun!…climb the tree..
Sif backed away, until her back was against the door of the bedroom. Her eyes widened in horror as she watched Ulfrun flash like lightning, sputter like a candle, and in a breath was blown away like ash.
“Ulfrun!” she screamed, dropping to the floor. Sobbing overpowered her as she stared at the spot where her sister had been.
Helga lowered her head. The spirits chattered, laughing and wailing. Ama began keening a lament for the dead. Her voice was clear and calm. It held all of Sif’s grieve.
There was a banging on the door. “Sif!” her madir called. “Sif! Let me in! What has happened?”
Sif did not move. Her body would not respond. The pounding on the door went on, but the words from her madir did not reach her. She was numb, as if asleep. A set of arms hoisted her from the floor and she heard the door open. Ama was still singing, and Helga held her aloft. Her madir had her face in her hands, was saying her name. Sif stared at her madir, feeling ashamed, feeling powerless, feeling like death was waiting for her too.
“Sif,” her madir whispered. “What happened to Ulfrun?” There were tears in her eyes. She did not need to ask, for she already knew.
Sif drew her breath raggedly, nearly gasping from how dry her throat and mouth had become. “She’s been carried off.”