There are times in life when you just don’t have the capacity to feel anymore. Deep pain, grief or trauma can take you to a state of emotional shut down. It can be protective, but it can also be debilitating. In a past life, I loved a man who probably would have loved me too, if the circumstances had been right. I honestly think he tried, but there was just too much in the way for us. It hurt watching him hurt for me, and it hurt that he couldn’t give me what I wanted. It hurt for so long that I almost couldn’t hurt anymore.

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I have no tears

You’ve run me dry

When I turn the spigot on my heart to cry

Nothing comes

You’ve consumed all I have.

I have no tears

All the nights used them

When I was supposed to be asleep in the dark

They spilled

Now there is nothing left.

I have no tears

But still my heart breaks

When I turn off the light, when I open my eyes

You remain

Consuming me.

I have no tears

You’ve run me dry.

I wish I could cry to ease the hurt but

Nothing comes

And your face remains.

I have no tears

Nothing to cry anymore

When I turn the faucet of heart

I’m dry

You’ve consumed all I am.

I have no tears.