Relationships are hard, and as a dear friend once counseled me, they are two-way. This poem says it all.

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Underneath all the love I have

Is a sea of questions I never asked

I was afraid to peel back my layers

And let you see the dark thoughts in my heart.

I still fear I will never get a chance

To tell you how wounded I was

How I loved you deeply until it hurt

And how I feel ashamed of my cowardice.

I would rather be honest with you now

Than to never voice the things that poison me

Even if it means I lose something I hold dear

Even if the words come out in a flood of anger

Because holding it all inside

And never knowing where we stand

Shakes my footing and leaves me wondering

How to continue to love you.