
A lot of people will tell you to journal in order to process your feelings. It’s a worthwhile pursuit. I believe in the power of the written word, no matter who is doing the writing. But journaling, for me, was never really the way I wanted to express the things that I was feeling. So I turned instead to writing poems.
Sometimes the poems are exactly what I want to say on the first draft. Sometimes they require revision. Sometimes they are so bland and ordinary that there is nothing worth revising. Sometimes they say nothing of consequence. Sometimes they say everything in just a few words. Sometimes they ramble.
I haven’t written many poems over the past ten years, but occasionally, poetry feels like the best way to process what I’m feeling. I find that when the dark parts of life come to roost, a poem can say what I need to say better than any other media. In a poem, I can be honest and authentic in ways that I can’t in an essay, an open letter, a short story or a journal entry. I can draw the reader (and myself) further into my pain through a poem. I can show my true self. I can use it to heal.
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Just Like That Other Sarah
If I had been the second girl My mother would have named me Hannah But I was not the second girl So instead, she named me Sarah. If I had been named Hannah I wonder if I would have pleaded with God Distressed to the point of incoherence As the ones who loved me offered…
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Going to Church
Going to church Is like needing a repeat cesarean Having your scars cut open and all anyone says is “Your baby is so beautiful.” Going to church Is like mindlessly picking at a scab Realizing the damage only after you’re told “You’re bleeding.” Going to church Is like marrying an alcoholic Watching the person you…
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When Joy Has Dried Up
Pressing onward when your joy has dried up Is like being the last of the roses to drop their petals Or the tree that slowly releases its leaves from the canopy. You shed as you move, flaking what is left of your smile Leaving a thick trail of your dream’s dust behind you That others…
