
A lot of people will tell you to journal in order to process your feelings. It’s a worthwhile pursuit. I believe in the power of the written word, no matter who is doing the writing. But journaling, for me, was never really the way I wanted to express the things that I was feeling. So I turned instead to writing poems.
Sometimes the poems are exactly what I want to say on the first draft. Sometimes they require revision. Sometimes they are so bland and ordinary that there is nothing worth revising. Sometimes they say nothing of consequence. Sometimes they say everything in just a few words. Sometimes they ramble.
I haven’t written many poems over the past ten years, but occasionally, poetry feels like the best way to process what I’m feeling. I find that when the dark parts of life come to roost, a poem can say what I need to say better than any other media. In a poem, I can be honest and authentic in ways that I can’t in an essay, an open letter, a short story or a journal entry. I can draw the reader (and myself) further into my pain through a poem. I can show my true self. I can use it to heal.
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Growth
When my wishing grew desperate And my spirit was aching To move forward in spite of The burrs that stuck to my heart You looked me in the eyes Saw how fragile I had grown Hiding behind a wall I thought was stone But really was as clear as glass. You asked me with compassion…
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I Have Reached An Age
I have reached an age Where it is not uncommon For my friend to lose their parent. Sometimes we sit together for a long time Before the cancer finally consumes And sometimes death suddenly descends, Disrupting, upheaving, chaotic. I bake bread and leave meals on porches, Knowing that the phone call I made to say…
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Is It Supposed To Hurt Like This?
Is it supposed to hurt like this? You were a friend, not a lover You were not my blood and bone Yet, I trusted you with everything And gave myself to you Whenever you required it Because that’s how much I loved you. Is it supposed to hurt like this? We lived in separate spaces…
