
A lot of people will tell you to journal in order to process your feelings. It’s a worthwhile pursuit. I believe in the power of the written word, no matter who is doing the writing. But journaling, for me, was never really the way I wanted to express the things that I was feeling. So I turned instead to writing poems.
Sometimes the poems are exactly what I want to say on the first draft. Sometimes they require revision. Sometimes they are so bland and ordinary that there is nothing worth revising. Sometimes they say nothing of consequence. Sometimes they say everything in just a few words. Sometimes they ramble.
I haven’t written many poems over the past ten years, but occasionally, poetry feels like the best way to process what I’m feeling. I find that when the dark parts of life come to roost, a poem can say what I need to say better than any other media. In a poem, I can be honest and authentic in ways that I can’t in an essay, an open letter, a short story or a journal entry. I can draw the reader (and myself) further into my pain through a poem. I can show my true self. I can use it to heal.
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While Angry
I am guilty Of sending an email while angry And of using harsh words To make a point. They’ve proven in the past This is the only mechanism I have To grab their attention And turn it to where they need to look. If they didn’t want To be called out for their cowardice Their…
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The Circle
When I am shattered I will sit down in the dust And draw a protective circle. And as I splinter I will watch for who comes To stand at the line I’ve drawn. From the center I will wait Until I find the rocky bottom Of the pit I’m mired in. Then I will raise…
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Before I Get the Kids
Before I get the kids I will sit in the car and cry in the driveway Overwhelmed by the feelings that linger I will mourn for the dreams that are dead. I might go through a drive through On my way to pick them up And order a large French fry because Those cookies I…
