
A lot of people will tell you to journal in order to process your feelings. It’s a worthwhile pursuit. I believe in the power of the written word, no matter who is doing the writing. But journaling, for me, was never really the way I wanted to express the things that I was feeling. So I turned instead to writing poems.
Sometimes the poems are exactly what I want to say on the first draft. Sometimes they require revision. Sometimes they are so bland and ordinary that there is nothing worth revising. Sometimes they say nothing of consequence. Sometimes they say everything in just a few words. Sometimes they ramble.
I haven’t written many poems over the past ten years, but occasionally, poetry feels like the best way to process what I’m feeling. I find that when the dark parts of life come to roost, a poem can say what I need to say better than any other media. In a poem, I can be honest and authentic in ways that I can’t in an essay, an open letter, a short story or a journal entry. I can draw the reader (and myself) further into my pain through a poem. I can show my true self. I can use it to heal.
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Healing Magic
I once knew a guy Who practiced the healing magic Of turning off his phone And ignoring his life until he felt whole. It was a frightening habit Because when he disappeared I imagined The worst possible reasons Rather than taking our time apart To do my own healing and renewal. The power of melting…
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Thank You
Thank you For explaining my own feelings to me And growing angry when I press you And pushing me away. I understand now That there isn’t a safe space at this table Where I can be valued Without needing to shrink. Thank you For pointing me onward When I was searching for an exit Of…
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Refined
I want to stay in the shower With the water as hot as I can stand Letting the liquid fire scald me until All the hurt washes down the drain. I want to stay in my bed With the covers pulled up to my chin Letting the warmth comfort me until All the weariness has…
